Last year was the hardest year of my life. Sometimes nothing more can be done but to dig a foxhole, gather your supplies and fight your enemy and hope for reinforcements or at least a supply drop so you can keep up the battle.
Perhaps I could have come out sooner, but I think I may have adjusted to forgetting I was even in a foxhole -- mistaking it for "life as I now know it".
Part of what I now want to do is get some joy back into life, creating space for it and trusting God a little more to do battle for me.
Thousand Miles blog will hopefully record many of these times as I breathe in some fresh air with people I love and take up some personal interests for myself that I have laid aside for much too long.
Living life on purpose does take some effort, but the reward is worth it. I'm breathing better already just talking about it!
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Oh Kerri I wish I had known you were in that hole so very far away! I've been in a hole myself and you are right, at some point you just don't realize you are there and it becomes the new normal. I'm so glad you've been able to see that while it may have been the normal, it shouldn't remain the normal.
Time to live and laugh again! Hey.....I know of someone who co-schools (oh how I wish I would have taken advantage of that more when you were so close! What was I thinking using that boxed curriculum and not being "able" to follow along with the cool things you guys were doing. Well, at least I did start agreeing to cut the day short and head to the nature center. I would do that again in a heartbeat.) Anyway, these co-schoolers recently started using skype to get together when someone was sick. Maybe we could skype it! Maybe Emily and Audrey could quiz each other on spelling - they might find that fun! Or...maybe Benjamin and Michael can talk to each other for 5 minutes and we can sip tea in the background!
Hope you had a nice Christmas. It must have been hard not being near family. But, maybe it was more relaxing at the same time?
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